Monday, October 31, 2011

Happy Halloween

Sorry that I haven't posted anything for Halloween. I've been trying to get schoolwork out of the way so I can have a pleasant Youmacon. I will record and then make a Halloween video like last year for you guys so don't worry!

But I wanted to wish you guys a happy halloween! My favorite holiday! Hope you guys had alot of canddddyyyy~


Saturday, October 29, 2011

I need advice.

So I felt like writing all this out because maybe you guys had/have the same problem. I'm going to not say names, just words and such.

So, what would you do, if your ex/current bf and yourself had a fight, and then decided not to talk to each other for personal reasons. And then you go to a gather with all your friends, having loads of fun, and that ex/current shows up. It becomes very awkward, so you step out of the group, feeling like shit and feeling unwanted. The ex/current is hanging around and talking to all of your other friends there, while your on the sidelines watching. 

Now here, you don't want to go near that person because you feel like that person would get uncomfortable and just feel weird. So, to prevent that, you stay away from the group and that person, which makes you feel more like shit. Oh, and to add, that person has their parents watching in the sidelines, so the entire time, you feel like your being chased by the 'cops', meaning the parents. So that's another reason why you are stay away.

So you start to lose interest in the whole party and start crying from not knowing what to do, and from fear of the parents, along with lose of wanted. Now, some people and notice and ask whats wrong and you lie so people dont get worried. So then you go outside with everyone and grab a bit to eat. You sit down. You look up and your ex/current is sitting at the table across from you. Again, you feel that weird vibe, so you go to another table. 

Then you get upset and text this person, saying how you feel, and that person completely just doesnt care or doesnt seem like it. THEN they dont text you back, instead the friend of the person texts you. Wow. Talk about immature. 

So, people are starting to leave, and the ex/current and the friend run past you and nudge your head, and run away. You turn around to see who touched you and see that its them, and you smile a bit, but still feel like shit.

So now knowing the situation, what would you do? What should I do? How should this person go about with this situation. Overall, I don't want to go to parties/gatherings paranoid because that person will be there. If only people were more mature.

Thursday, October 27, 2011


After reading about Saya-san's death, it really got me thinking. "The Cosplay Queen", also known as Saya, recently passed away on March 15th, 2011. Some people believe this is an April Fools joke. I hope to God it isn't.

It really got me thinking..How can a girl like her, bring so much pain to others, and people she never knew. Its beautiful. And then I started thinking again. This sounds very bad and whatnot but I'm just wondering and thinking.

What would happen, if I myself, passed away. Who would care? Who would express it? Who would cry about it? Its a fascinating thing to think about. 

And that got me thinking even more. Live life to its fullest. You never know, when God decides to end you entirely. Its a scary thought actually. Like, how would it be on the other side? And how will everyone be with you gone. 

I've always thought about it.

R.I.P. Saya-san, you are gone from this world, but not mine.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Mid-terms and Video

So mid-terms are on monday and Im fricking out because none of my teachers gave us a packet to study from or anything ;-; and i still have homework on top of studying merh >O

I fricken hate college.

And then my friend is coming over Saturday for a video shoot. Excited about that, but I guess I'll study all day today.


Friday, October 7, 2011


Sooo I finally revealed my secret dance. Lucifer my SHINee. >>. Yeahhhh. Lol. It was soooooooo hard to learn you have no idea, but all I did was watch the video 50,0000000000000 times XD. Thats it. And just kept doing it over and over until I got it. I know most of the dance, but not the 2nd chours. Everyone flipped when I uploaded it to youtube, I don't think anyone expected me to do this. haha. SUCCESS. I'm still working on it so don't hate me and bash me >_> the song is very hard but so much fun to do. I kinda wanna get a group together :3

Here it is!